Love me for who I AM.

I am 21.I am an engineering student.And I am gay.I am writing this article because I am angry,frustrated feel unbearably suffocated in my closet.I realized I was gay,when I was 14.No, I never had any 'bad experience' in my childhood that made me 'turn gay'.

No uncle or elder cousin ever molested me. I am gay because I believe I was born gay. God or nature, whatever one believes in, made me what I am.Just as some people are blonde or left-handed, sexual orientation is also a feature that is decided biologically.Modern technology can determine the sexual orientation of a child even before he is born.

The WHO has removed homosexuality from its psychological disorders.Yet, some people would like to believe otherwise.They would say that if everyone were gay, there would be no society. This is a dishonest argument for the simple reason that everyone is not gay. They say it's against the Bible - an abomination of God.
But if Christians can change their views on the issues of divorce, women's rights and slavery, why not on the issue of homosexuality as well? Then there are those in India who claim that homosexuality is against Indian culture and Hinduism. Have they never been to the Khajuraho temples, embellished with homoerotic art? Do they not know that the Kamasutra is not just about straight sex? Do they not know that there is not a single scriptural missive against homosexuality in the Vedas - the ultimate authority of Hinduism?

I had my first boyfriend when I was 19. We met online in a gay-dating chat-room and when we finally met face to face, it was love at first sight. Never before in my life had I been so happy. He too was a closeted gay, but was far too petrified to ever come out. When he refused to commit to a future with me just because his family would not accept it, and he'd ultimately have to marry a girl as all Indian men are expected to do, I broke up with him. Our relationship lasted only a few months, but it left me emotionally scarred and broken in spirit. But I also realised that it was not totally his fault.
A survey has shown that 80 per cent of gay men in India are too scared to reveal their sexuality to their families and are trapped in 'normal' (read heterosexual) marriages. Few months back, a gay couple in a West Bengal village committed suicide. My heart cries for these two souls who chose death over separation.

I am writing this because I want to warn all parents of the pain that they might be causing to their children, because of their naïve assumption that they are straight. I want to appeal to the political class of India to repeal or at least tone down Section 377 of the Indian Penal Code that criminalises homosexuality. I want to appeal to all readers to shed their homophobia and stop hating us for who we love. Stop committing violence against us because of the affection that exists in our lives.

I am a closeted gay and I want to come out. But that won't be possible until this highly homophobic society keeps the closet door firmly shut on the face of some 30 million gay and lesbian people of the nation. Today, I have a boyfriend whom I love with all my heart and who loves me as much. He has recently moved to another city for his job, and we miss each other a lot. But we look forward to being together very soon. Probably, that won't be possible in India without sacrificing our freedom and dignity. Probably, we'll have to leave India for a more gay-friendly country like Canada or the UK. But I love India and I do not want to leave my motherland. And that is why

I fervently appeal to all those who are reading this - please stop judging people by who they love, and start judging them by whether they love.

I wrote this poem about a couple of years back, but ironically enough, even today, it remains as relevant in my life. In it, I dream about the day I can be myself, when people would love me for what I am, and not what I pretend to be.

There will be a day I can tell the world I'm gay When hatred and disgust Shall not bar my way To come out of the closet-So stifling today. When "normal" men realise I'm no less normal; When archaic laws Don't deem my love criminal; When I walk hand in hand And proudly I can stand With my beloved beside me And the light of freedom around me. There will be a day When I can tell the world I'm gay..

(as told by a homosexual to a reporter)

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Current song:-Smoke on the water-Deep Purple.
Yeah..this song describes my condition.;)
Yay!!
Last paper on Saturday..*phew*.
Now now now..we've been busy,haven't we?.But now I'm BACK.huh! :D
Lets start this thing..and I'll welcome myself here..with some of the pictures clicked by me :) Lol.

Here it goes..BTW-the activity for you all is,to give a name to each picture,it can be anything you wish,or something related to the stuff I wrote about the picture.So ..rock on! ;)

A rose..something..which has a shine of its own!!..

Check this out..:)
Made this for my friends and family..:)..

Hehe..name this one yourself..;)

Way back..A never ending path

Illusionary friendship,NAH!

A broken and totally abandoned house I saw..reminded me of ...:|

My all time favourite.*soaring high*


Kudos,guys!

'Cos its all about LIVING YOUR DREAM!

Dreams.
:-)


Doesn't that word..that expression in itself bring a smile to your face?
We all dream,don't we?..that might be anything about.
The list of it is like soooo endless.

So what are your dreams?..you know what..when I think of this topic..a thing that comes to my mind is a jist from a poem by Rudyard Kipling--
"If you can dream,and not make dreams your master..IF you can think,but not make thoughts your aim.."...(whole poem available here)

Its so true..isn't it? There are times when we think of a dream,and forget to live it.
And there are also times when we think of a dream,and go mad trying to live it.
They say,there's a thin line between insanity and sanity.So where do you lie? No,I'm not talking about the sane and insane part..I am talking about the living your dream and forgetting about it.
We all dream..yes,we are all (read:day) dreamers...but not all of us fulfill their dreams till the end.Is anyone of us living their dreams?

I would so want to know that..
What was or is your dream?
Did you live it?
If yu didn't then why? (I don't mean to get personal,your free to answer the two questions above only if you want to.)

And don't worry,I'm not talking about the BIG dreams,it can be about anything ;-) (understand ANYTHING,right.lol)

PS-Lets start with my dreams-

Get into the IAF,or actually anything and any job where I can serve my country.

Orphans..they didn't choose that destiny for themselves,did they? They're people who I want to help.


:)



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Tc.

LOST "it"!!!!

Helloooooo =P

Hahahaha..bleh!
I feel like..LOOOOOL.....I haven't studied..and bwahahahaha..*goes hysterical*
An d 4 days for the exams..okay okay!
Maybe you're tired of listening to my examination horrifications..lets get the atmosphere round here a bit oxygenated! *beep beep beep..everywhere I go..subjects follow* (vodafone addict?)


Firstly..thanks a megaTON Keshi..for giving me sucha wuuunderful award..and a wonderlady and friend in you..whew!!..don't have anything to gift you till Australlia..:(
but yes..my pic editing is on a high..so..here you are-(click to enlarge!)


I wish..I could print and laminate this to send it to ya..but well..i hope you do so!! :)

Then then..lets just finish this off with a poem..

The weave of romance, friendship and love
Always alive, moving with the two
Their hopes and sharing
The strength and warmth
Each can give Each can be free
And then the play unfolds
When each can
Live for the other
Nurturing and inspiring
Only the problems unforgiven
Could end . . .

The rainbows and real fun
The times outdoor and flush
With each other and breezes
The light fills both lives
A beach is the edge of their one heart
The sky the cover of the nakednt and delight
In giving
Giving
Giving
If it isn't giving
It isn't living


Yeah..i visited an orphanage some day back..and I donated some 3000 i collected..seems less,but it was all i had.
Live with a purpose!

:)

tuddles people!

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I currently see a lot of people giving..receiving and taking awards..well..i have some to give as well!!...(okay okay..i am allergic to copying things like pictures..so i took out my own personalized range of awards..lol)


Hehe..this goes to all the sweethearts out there..:)
Saim,Goonj,Aneri,Sachi,Mann,Hemanth,Anindita,Riversoul,Solitaire,Sourish (aka Daydreamer),Keshi and last but not the least-G-man (where the hell are you,mate?)




This one? Its for those dearies who've always been round here..(troubling and making me bang my head again the wall!..hehe)


Cinderella (aka Pallaviee),Divkiran,Sameera,Meghna,Chriz,Echo,Nirmal and Jane..


And the last award.....

The future rooockeeshtars!!..

Mayz,Neha (d sinner),Scribblers,Maverick,Nits,*


Thanks a lot guys!!
And don't worry..I have a special award for all other blogger buddies!!